A Letter to Everyone and No One

Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you and wonder where you are, what you’re doing, if you’ve found happiness and meaning in life, or if in the end you lost the battle.  But it isn’t only you I think about.  Not a day goes by that I don’t worry about every person I’ve ever seen in pain, whether they were a family member, a good friend, or a stranger I saw but once in my life.  Not a day goes by that I don’t worry about all the people I’ve ever cared for, that I don’t fall into a dark pit of despair where light does not reach, where only the putrid smell of death and decay rise up from the rotting ground and echoes of sadness reverberate all around me.  And as I stand there shivering and forsaken, I wonder what possible purpose there can be to this wretched life, to this sorry existence that is punctuated only here and there by moments of joy; when there are pits of oblivion like this one, when every day thousands of children starve to death all around the globe. 

But each time I manage to claw my way back up, slowly, and with great effort, until I glimpse the dim light of the world above piercing the cold darkness that surrounds me.  And once I’ve reached the surface, I fall to the ground, broken, but not defeated, and I look to the blue, cloudless sky and delight once again in the sun’s blinding rays that descend like resplendent shards of glass from the heavens.  And again, as always, I realize that life is not wretched, that there is purpose to this existence.  And I imagine, too, that you’re out there somewhere, happy, living the life you wanted.   

Shards of Light

About atomsofthought
Photographer. Traveler. Writer. Reader.

11 Responses to A Letter to Everyone and No One

  1. Debra says:

    I love your heart shining through this post. It’s a good heart, I can tell. Thanks for sharing, I found you @ Blogplicity.

    One of my favorite stories is about a man who asked God (paraphrased): Why are you letting people starve, allowing violence and injustice, pain and suffering- and not doing anything about it!!

    And God said: I DID do something about it….I created YOU.

    May you, my friend, also find your PURPOSE in shining light into the darkness of this world. That is my mission, may it be yours as well.

    God bless. Thanks for sharing:)

  2. Lisa says:

    You are a good writer and I can feel your pain and sorrow but also your recovery. Great Job keep it up look forward to more posts.
    xxooxx

  3. Nick,
    Beautifully written….. I felt your words loud and clear..
    xoxo
    Jessica

  4. So beautiful Stuart. We all go through the same “Why me?” syndrome but the trick is to come out of it and live life fully with its positive and negative and you are doing that, looking up towards the sun. Simple lovely the way you write.

    http://rimlybezbaruah.blogspot.com/2011/05/pressed-flowers.html

  5. May you find the peace and joy life offers, not just in sparse moments when they are their most obvious, but in the subtle ordinary moments may you see the wonder life has to offer. ~blessings

  6. You’re not alone, as you can see from these comments. And such a wonderful photograph!

  7. seiketsu0473 says:

    *|+

    Even those who travel in the path of darkness and despair, feel at some point that everything could be worse. That is the only hope I take on count.

    You, for instance, have written a letter for No one, indulging your self in the process. Now what you have left? A mild sense of loss, a sweetened melancholy. But what is the sense of it?

    Where does the soul rest if not in the projection of his own release?

    I hope my q’s don’t soar or mean inconvenience at all.

  8. What a stunning post. You write beautifully of things everyone has known. Very glad to have found this blog! 🙂

    Cat

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